Hi world. Please employ me. Thanks!

"Dear Amanda: We regret to inform you that we cannot fulfill your request for employment. Things are hectic now and there's simply just no time to train you in the crazy, mile a minute world. While we cannot accept you now, we will keep you in mind in the future. Thank you for your interest. Sincerely, 'the World'"

This pretty much sums up my life right now (thanks to my contextually hilarious roommate, Erika).

I have options. I do not worry whether I will find something worth doing. The desperation comes from waiting to land the job I want and figuring out worthy back-up plans or interim options. At this point, if I don't get the kick-ass job with FORGE working with refugees in Zambia, I'll probably end up teaching English in Colombia. Why is that my back-up? I really want to go to Colombia, good pay, and health insurance. But, for now, I just have to wait and hear back about Zambia.

This is definitely an interesting time. In a month, my friends and I will be dispersing throughout the globe indefinitely. It's liberating, exciting, and kind of terrifying. There's this sense of urgency to soak up all of DC and do everything I never took advantage of, but always wanted to (and then realizing I don't really have the time or money to do it all). There's the shared concern of keeping in touch with friends who will be far away (especially because I am terrible at doing that). The interesting prospect of meeting new people and making new friends (though, how that happens is still a fairly baffling process). The apathy as securing a job and living up the last month grow more important than coursework. And, ultimately, the looming shadow of "good-bye" that we all know is coming.

4 weeks until the semester ends. 5 1/2 weeks until graduation. Crazy.